I will stumble, I will fall down, but I will not be moved. I will make mistakes, I will face heartaches, but I will not be moved. On Christ the Solid Rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand, I will not be moved. These are the words to one of my new favorite songs by Natalie Grant-"I Will Not Be Moved." This morning they fall fresh and new on my heart as if I haven't heard the song over and over again, but for the first time. My heart is so heavy and so confused. My life is a mess right now, many things I once held sacred seem to be crumbling around me. But, let's face it, life is just plain hard. Sure, it is full of mountaintop experiences that we would never trade for anything, but it is also full of disappointments and valleys, some that we would trade and some not. My life is so not what I dreamed or planned at the moment, in fact, it is probably almost opposite. But, I am trying to come to the realization that God indeed has the better plan and He is working things for His Good. As the old hymn says, "Farther along we'll know all about it, farther along we'll understand why".
I found myself thinking about how I don't deserve all of the chaos and trial that is going on around me, but then I thought, you know what? I truly deserve to die. Truth be known, we all do and it is only by God's Grace and by Jesus's death on the cross that we aren't dead in our sin. So, today I am choosing to turn my eyes and my heart to Jesus, to thank Him for His Love and His Mercy. To thank Him for the confusion and pain because it means I can feel and that I am alive and so blessed when I truly deserve so much less. To say, here I am Lord, use me. Make me a willing vessel, to be poured out and filled with more of You. Make me the salt and light of the world that You intend me to be. Even if it means I have to go through the fire, I'd rather go through the fire with You, Lord, than to walk in the most beautiful and humanly safest places without you.
Thank You, Lord, that You choose to love me...in Your Precious Name I pray...
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3 comments:
AMEN sister! I used to ask "why me" but I realized why not me? I get blessings and don't ask why!! Your writing is encouraging and challenging. I know God is well pleased with you. Can't wait to see you on the other side of this fire. I know it will be beautiful.
Love ya -
Sheryl
Kimberly,
You are in my thoughts and prayers today.
Love, LINDA
Kimberly, I just love to read your blog.(and thats all I've got to say about that) Karen
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