Give me a willing heart...

Lord, give me a willing heart
and Lord, give me a brand new start.
Create in me, a love that's real,
and give me a willing heart.

Don't know why, but a lot of old songs and choruses have been popping in my head lately. This one is a chorus that I learned at "Super Wow" when I was twelve years old. But, you know what? It speaks to me today just as freshly as it did that day in June long ago.

Makes me think about just how stubborn I am. Makes me think about how many times, including now, that God is trying to speak to my heart, but everything seems to stop in my head. Like there is a problem in transmission. Change is difficult, oh how difficult!!! And, I get so scared. I wonder so many times if God really sees. But, like I heard in our Bible Study Video the other night, We have a difficult time following Jesus if we live in a life of fear. Ouch!!! I know that God is trying to change me, I know that He is trying to mold me and make me into something so much better, but oh how I have been fighting Him. Why do I do that? I know that His Ways are so much better than mine. Why do I get so scared, so consumed, so overwhelmed?

Lord, I have tried on my own to do this thing called life alone so many times. I can feel Your tug at my heart strings so often, but Lord, I am not always willing to listen. God sometimes change is just scary. But, You did not call me to a life of fear. God, take my heart and make me willing. Willing to be subject to Your Will and willing to let You change me and mold me into whatever You want me to be. You are the Potter and I am indeed the clay. Take the fear and replace it with the peace that only comes from knowing You. Draw me close to You and never let me go!!! In Your Sweet Name I pray...